Vulnerable

Its like when we are small, when you fall, have a bleeding knee, sprained your ankle, and you pick yourself up at the end, sucking it in and say hey its alright! But once you see your family or parents and they go, " oh wat happened?" Then your strong front crumbles and you go in tears waaaaaaa i fell....

Living with your family does give you the precious time to spend with your loved ones, and gives you the fall-back support when you need it. However it also weakens the resolute that you are but one and alone to pick yourself at the end of the day. i feel stronger when I was out there alone in Sweden.

Purple

Lets see how purple can it get...:) Am in the midst of the hair- dyeing process with my stinky hair in front of the computer and typing this post...

Breakng out of the limbo:
As one of my best friends said, you wont stay in limbo for long, you are a social butterfly. my 1st impression is eeks. Thats not me.... But maybe she is right afterall. :)

Ok shape up or ship out. Get a grip sister!

Have a new man in my life, he's japanese but born in Thailand. Sis agrees with me that his name has to be Jed. Arrives next week, ka-chink there goes the cashflow, no more travelling that much and comes monetary obligation to upkeep. But honey, think we make a great couple, i bring in the dough and you make me sing! Ha!

a hole

somewhere somehow this hole is eating me...
cant really place a finger to it, guess i need some quality time to myself to sort things out

Its a different Chinese Character of "Ying"

and this mascot is supposed to be a boy...oh well...still so cute and boy was I tickled when I got this in an email. :)

the world has changed?

Met up with my ex junior colleague mates last nite for a night of ktv singing, god it feels good to sing in a big room with good stereo !

Anyways, the weirdest conclusion of the whole nite came from 2 of the guys , 26year olds like me...want to get married SOON or lamenting that they need to have a suitable wife soon, so that they can have lots of kids?! Some targetting 4, but its going to be an expensive affair...

I was like, woah.....guys and girls these days seem to have a reversal role change...or they probably just want to play with the kids and not take care of the other day-day stuff...Hello?! its not that easy ok...

may you rest in peace

You have accompanied me through spring, summer, autumn and winter
seen through snow, rain, hail, heat together
even though, you showed hints of weariness in your gaping holes
I still hung on to you till your heaving last breath where your back finally broke.

my trusty comfy boots, may you rest in peace
for you have served your master well
and its with the deepest regret that I have to let you go